Hey Leah, please read this slowly as I wrote this very slowly
Wonderful thread

. I love this topic so I'll get off my bum and participate for a subject cool as this.
In a relationship, passion, touching, flirting, sex, are certainly not everything. There are less pretty but more staple factors like trust, and congruity. But the fun parts are about as important as oxygen to a bio-organism.
Often, at the start of an encounter, with or without drawn intentions, it's like a candle flame. Pretty, exciting, not hot enough to burn, but bright enough to singe.
Passing that it may evolve into a deep and unquenchable coal fire. No longer is it a pretty little candle flame that dances with the delicate grace of a ballet dancer that is so easily wiped out by ubiquitous factors. This raging heat now has a heart that embodies trust, integrity, and dependability despite the harshest of elements.
Well...... That's how love should be. But in modern society. Political fiction, religious interest, and other outdated learned responses and beliefs has a union that is signed with a pen on paper in the presence of witnesses that lock us into a double binding contract.
The very presence of this contract is a contradiction to the deep seated desire of 2 lovers wanting to be together by choice. Deeper than the base of this seat are questions that pop up about wheher we are in this because we want to, or have to? And with the nature of beings on this rock playing tendencies to view the grass always being greener else where, many slowly but steadily parachute into a reality of not seeing what they have, let alone desiring. And reaching energetically to what they percieve is forbidden.
Parallel to this, exclusive double binds need not a signed piece of paper to have this effect. Rules inflicted are enough to create this destructive illusion.
By no means am I discouraging anything. Yet I am not encouraging anything either. Each has a journey that is unique. But I do encourage myself to keep it unique. Meaning that my reality should come from within and not from learned responses sourced from the outside of me.
Now, in my lessons of living so far, this is how far I have gotten in my work in progress on this matter. With a partner I am. Happy we are. Perfect relationship we have not. Yet is has been the most functional, sexy, intimate, loving, and desirable place we have both ever been.
Mutually we acknowledge that we owe each other nothing, yet offer everything. We are both free to leave this wonderful encounter when ever one of us wish to do so. And we are free to experience all there is to experience with an agreed boundary of freedom that most have never contemplated.
Result? The necessity for energies such as jealousy, suspicians, and other taboos created by society have been excused, and invited to move on.
Everyday when we trust, desire, and miss each other more than ever when we are apart. And when we are not, we cannot keep our hands of each other. Affection is a presence that stays at our place as a permanent resident. Speaking for myself as I can only know my internal modality and not hers, I want her soooooo bad, all the time regardless of whom Im with. For the first time, satiation in wanting my girl mentally, spritually, and sexually has not been experienced. This same body and would still gets me aroused on time everytime. And has my Light Sabre flashing to full glory with or without my consent lol. Conversations can and do drag on for waaay too long as though we are flirting in cafe for the first time. It's a pretty cool place to be
Well I have shared my $20 worth. Hope it added value to what you are seeking in this thread. I wish you a lifetime of experiences where the profound and the profane are smothered into one like a swirl of chocolate and red wine.
May the Force be with you Leah
